Is it true... ?

I awoke this morning with things weighing heavily on my mind. No matter how long I think it over I keep coming back to the same question. I guess it finally got to me last night not long after I found out but I refuse to believe its true. I'm not sure what's next, sorta like the old Bob Seeger song says:

I woke last night to the sound of thunder
How far off I sat and wondered
Started humming a song from 1962
Ain't it funny how the night moves
When you just don't seem to have as much to lose....

Yeah, that's me... not much to lose......

I know that friendships have ceased due to less important questions but I am haunted so with needing to know the truth that I have to have an answer from you. I am certain that you must realize my feelings for you by now and know that I would never say or do anything to intentionally hurt you. I cannot know if you really feel the same since you keep your feelings bottled up so and rarely let me see the true emotion you are experiencing, and now, this. If it's true it could change everything  I have to ask, the answer means everything to me. You could literally change my whole world with a yes or no.

All I ask is that if you feel you cannot reveal the truth, that one day you will forgive me for putting you in this position and that we can at least remain friends, if not then I hope you will come to realize that I had only the best of intentions and please, please keep this between us. I simply could not bear for anyone else to know.  If you feel as though you cannot face the truth and do not want the burden of having to answer perhaps you should stop reading now.

Still reading? Maybe the answer to the question below will destroy us both. Pehaps it could result in a change that neither of us could face or handle or maybe you have already stopped reading and perhaps we will never know. Or maybe I have it all wrong and none of this means a rat's ass to you at all, OR, perhaps you feel as I do and the answer is just waiting to leap out and escape from your lips.

Since I really have nothing else to lose either way, I'd rather face the truth. If I just can't handle the answer ...well I have been headed down a destructive path with no return for a long time. Don't blame yourself especially if you know its not what I want to hear. It really is not your fault. Just be aware that I deeply care and if the answer is true, I will still forgive you for everything I have heard. Whichever the case, there is no escape, no turning back I have to know the answer.... Is it true that mickey mouse is really mickey rat?